Realize

Ya know I thought just dating girls would help me to find a girl that I could be with for a while but it just seems like a waste of time. At this point I know what I want. So I figure there is no point in just dating random girls just because. Essentially I wont be happy. I'll know when I find it... until then I'm going to have to force myself to leave girls alone. I just want someone that can love me for the right reasons, someone that will take care of me when I get too drunk, someone who will stand beside me, and support my crazy ideas about art, or just life in general, Someone who will stay up til 5:59am talking to me when we both have to be up a 6:00am. I refuse to settle for less.

I just need to be patient.

Past thoughts

Don't be afraid to find a way. Communicate your thoughts when it's your own line. Better to know, get "yes" or "no," Than wonder if it wait... Wait, I'm feeling it again Reminds me of being a kid Jumping on every seat in a moving car It's life like the movies where we are On basement show weekends, Trying our hands at pop-punk bands. All music, sharing everything that means the most.I'm getting so nervous scripting out these thoughts.I'm hoping I really don't mess this part up. Communication's something I still don't get,But if you work with me I'm sure to make it.

Don't be afraid

(1:18) confessions

Disregard the faces when you see me. I know they are burnt in your memory. Do not fret this is not reality. I don't speak to you because of what haunts me. I hope you read this, and if you do I hope you know what this is about. I hate that everything happened this way, but it wasn't my choice. It's so ridiculous that one choice affects so many things. For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. The smallest decision can and will affect life as we know it. I don't know what is going to happen. You're relentlessly seeking answers from me. I respect that. But at this time in my life I don't know if the answers you've sought can be revealed. It's crazy how my emotions can paralyze me.

Just be patient...please.

My favorite person

PLUG IN!

Such Dissatisfaction

I'm becoming such an angry person. I'm not sure who or what is the culprit. There are so many underlying problems that I have been pushing away for a long time. I don't even know what makes me happy anymore. I find comfort in very little. What I used to look forward to in life has become a mixture of "I don't cares" and "Why does it matter." Succession brings greatness but over time greatness brings failure. I'm not sure what the answer to any of this is, I just hope there is an answer.

They say the first love is the sweetest but the first cut is the deepest. But a wound will never heal if you’re constantly being cut. I’ve come to realize only love can mend a broken heart it’s ironic how the one thing that gives life is also the reason for your pain and despair. When you love someone more than you love yourself that love will eventually turn into hatred. Every day I just want to be numb; numb to everything and everyone because no one really cares about what you’re doing or about who you are so stop trying to impress everyone you come in contact with live for your own satisfaction find fulfillment in your own deeds that’s the only way you can live a sane life. Why share everything with another human being who says they have the right to live my dream with me. Harsh words will help you to embrace your true feelings of a substantial life. To really know how you feel is what I long for. Even though I’m sure it’s not mutual. I will continue to not be bothered by your presence because I know it tortures your soul and it will become inevitable that you will break. When that day comes I will rejoice in complete satisfaction that I caused malice within your own emotion within your self-conscious, your sub-conscious, within your every breath. It will be as if every time you inhale the hold will be tighter, constricting your life and every attribute that encompasses your being. I’m so far gone now to wait would only kill me.

Destruction of Beauty

OK, so there is this local sign company that seems to have just opened up called EYE GOT IT signs. I've been searching for them on the web for the past couple of days now but all I can find is an address. This sign company is the reason why the sign industry is losing it's accountability, it's goodwill. Lets just say the logo looks like a "hunk of shit" its literally like 3 shapes with a word in each shape. Makes me sick! So I can only imagine what kind of garbage they are producing. I will find out more about this place soon. I will find every way to exploit them. "Fuck it we are gonna take it back."

Quotes from Aaron Draplin

Anit-Christ Girlfriend Visiting my Sub-Conscious

Fuck it
I get the feeling tonight that it's going down
I get the feeling she might hit the fan
I get the feeling cause she left without a reason
But I don't care! She's a fucking nightmare!

Like a fool, back in school, run around on the weekend
Took a bit of time but now I see it like a bee can [uh oh oh oh]
When I'm not around you're with another dude streeking
Like bount chica bount bount chica bount-bount

I spy a girl gone wild weekend
I spy that you're hittin' up my best friend
I spy you're going down in the deep end
6-6-6, my antichrist girlfriend

I take back all the shit I gave you
I take back every word I said to you
I take back everything except the part where I said we were through
I take back all the shit I gave you
I take back every word I said to you
I take back everything except the part where I said we were through

Bust it
I get the feeling she might sleep with other guys
I get the feeling tonight she's not alone
I get the feeling cause he picked her up this evening
But I don't care! She's a fucking nightmare!

Smokin' kools by the pool
Saw your tail when I was peeking and
Went to grab a beer and heard the box spring squeakin'
Walked into the room and there you were freakin'
LIke bount chica bount bount chia bount-bount

I spy a girl gone wild weekend
I spy that you're hittin' up my best friend
I spy you're going down in the deep end
6-6-6, my antichrist girlfriend

I take back all the shit I gave you
I take back every word I said to you
I take back everything except the part where I said we were through
I take back all the shit I gave you
I take back every word I said to you
I take back everything except the part where I said we were through

Good riddance and goodbye, take your promise turned to lies
Take your lows and your highs like a rollercoaster ride
Like a polar tht's a bi lie woo!
That's a sigh of relief
so listen, I'm gonna tell you why

You're gonna get what you deserve
What goes around comes around, haven't you heard?
Like a boomerang bound to round the curve
You're gonna get what you deserve

I take back the life that I gave you
I take back all my fucking money too
I take back everything except the part where I said we were through
I'm taking back all the flowers that I gave you
I'm taking back all the dinners that I bought you
I'm taking back the time you stole my heart, my soul, are you even listenin'?

Unwanted Affection

You're stuck on me
and my laughing eyes
I can't pretend though
I try to hide, I like you
I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe, you got me, yeah
You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet
And that crooked smile of yours
it knocks me off my feet

Top Beer logos (in my opinion)

ok, okay?

What the Fooey?

Doin' it

World's Longest Yard Sale - Bonus Scraps from Jess Gibson on Vimeo.

World's Longest Yard Sale - Part Two from Jess Gibson on Vimeo.

Pg. 1,2&3 of 4

Progress

Rise up

America Is F*cked.......(Graphically at least) from Jess Gibson on Vimeo.

It is about time someone does something about this. It's an ongoing issue that millions have tried to approach and this guy just said fuck it I don't care what people think I'm gonna tell it like it is.

Pg 1&2 of 4

Different Approach.

Print's not dead Pt. 2

I was having a conversation with a good friend of mine today about print and how WE as designers need to rejuvenate it. Print has been said to become obsolete which leaves the responsibility in the hands of designers. We need to create print that is substantial. People love having something they can touch and feel something tangible but we have to keep it alive and breathing. If we can pull this off we can make print way more profitable and valid. I'm on board.

Here is a like to a website that any designer should go to and check out... and sign up!

www.typophile.com

Rough Triangles

Today was more or less unbearable. Busy all day + no food + homework + revisions for a client = chaotic. Although it seems as though nothing good has come from today I know subconsciously there's got to be something positive that came from this experience.

Anyway...

I've been coming across quite a bit of triangles in a lot of design lately... I think someone is on to something. It seems as if this might be a new trend and one that could possibly expand further. Can't wait to see where this goes.

If I survive let this strengthen me, and if I shall fail let my repercussions mirror my effort.

For What It's Worth

I refuse to fall victim, to be cut short of full potential. I'm not asking you to understand but just to listen. Becuase when it comes down to it its my heart that will prove who I am. I will be heard. Every word. Resistance marked as a weakness, ignorance masked as intelligence, I stand in defiance.

This is the last time that I'll find myself left behind.

Print's not dead

This studio is absolutely incredible. I highly suggest checking them out.

Kind of pricey but you get what you pay for.

www.tasteofinkstudios.com

Burning out

Brooklyn Brooklyn take me in, Are you aware the shape I'm in.

My hands they shake, My head it spins. Three words that became hard to say,

I and Love and You...

Meaning

This is my re-creation of STYG's "The Hope Division" album cover.



Stick To Your Guns has always been a band about brotherhood, and hope for humanity. The latest album released by them is the epitome of what they've been about for years now. I also want to compliment the art, as it is the perfect attribute to the message they portray in their music & lyrics.

In a world that cant, we can. In a world that hates, we understand.

4 months

Why don't you just take a chance? Search for something real. Or maybe you already found it, but you're blinded by those who surround you. Part the waters and take a breath.





If you let me you wont regret me, If you let me you wont forget me.

SBD

This is a mock up of my future freelance site + my business cards.

Be on the lookout for the launch of SBD.

Finding

So the past few months have been an eye opener. I've been through quite a bit whether it be issues with work, school, or just life. I've been searching for "Ryan" lately and I believe I am starting to discover some interesting things about myself. I'm leaving my options wide open, keeping my hands in the bucket O' chicken digging for that last drumstick. Six months from now so huge change will be happening I can only hope that things will be different. I'll leave you with this.

"Beware lest you lose the substance by grasping at the shadow"